I worked at Morton Salt for ten years. I have used their motto for years to describe times when it seems God is piling a lot onto my plate. “When it rains, it pours.” The motto was never meant to be used the way I use it, but that never stopped me. When it rains, salt clumps and gets hard. It will no longer flow. Morton Salt was the first salt company to add an anti-caking agent to the salt, so when it rained, it poured.
Since my foot surgery in May, it has been pouring. A couple of weeks ago my mother-in-law started having issues. She was having balance issues and kept falling. She was also experiencing memory issues. My father-in-law needed some assistance. Todd and Justin went to Todd’s parent’s house daily to help them. A few days into the routine, Todd’s parents both tested positive for Covid. We knew there was a risk from Todd being there, but there was no one else to help. Todd continued going to his parents daily. The following Saturday, all four of us tested positive. Casa de Chaos was officially Casa de Enfermo.
Todd and Emily were down for a full week. Justin was asymptomatic. I am still testing positive and not feeling great. I just can’t seem to fight it. Our house is typical to others, we all pitch in and help, but as the mom, the majority falls on me. Everyone depends on me to take care of them, and that was no different with everyone having Covid in the house. The boys helped with Emily but the majority of her care was on me. I am certain I have not got the rest my body needs to recover. I have done the bare minimum to keep the home running. I have ordered groceries to be delivered. I do not have the energy to do much or do much well.
It hasn’t been easy keeping my spirits up. I have been hard on myself for not being able to “rally” or do more. There is guilt about Emily being stuck in the house for a week, although I am sure the general population appreciates that. I am mad that my body is not recovering as well as the rest of the family.
This past week I have been leaning on a quote from one of my prior articles, “gratitude is always available”. I have to keep reminding myself to look for the good. What am I grateful for in this season of pouring rain?
- Grocery delivery service. Seriously, bread and bananas delivered within an hour. Groceries were delivered to Todd’s parents when we were sick and couldn’t shop for them.
- The Wiggles. You all know I am forever grateful for them. Those dudes always have my back.
- My job. I have the best bosses in the world. They have always worked around my crazy life and I am grateful.
- My Seeing Goodness and Pause Breathe Reflect Communities. These peeps have called me. Texted me. Sent goodies (things I never knew I needed). They have sent me books, quotes, art, and poems to lift my spirits.
- My mentor, Bobby Kountz, for sending me his art and quotes to encourage me.
- My accountability groups cheer me on and call me out on my negative llama drama.
- Streaming. When I have been up at 2 am sick and unable to sleep, I can find something to watch. Thank you Kathleen for sharing your son’s film, Love & Gelato. It was fun, cute, and just what the doctor ordered.
- NyQuil. Did I mention that this old-school remedy still works to help me catch some zzz’s.
- Fresh, delicious fruit (delivered to my door). Emily and I have eaten our body weight in cantaloupe, honeydews, watermelon, and pineapple.
- Homemade soup.
- Good books, mediocre books, and fantastic books. No matter the quality, I have been distracted from my misery and transported to new places through books.
- Bleach, Lysol, and essential oils. All have been used with reckless abandon in our home.
- My home. It is not huge. It is not flashy. It is small but comfortable. It has everything I need.
- Corry for bringing me more Covid test kits when we ran out!
Once I started looking for the good, I kept seeing goodness. I am grateful that I have learned to find things to be grateful for in a storm. While I do not always choose gratitude, I know gratitude is always available.
A special thank you to Connie, Kimberly, and Sharon for my packages that came three days in a row. I was grinning from ear to ear. The book is hilarious. Not exactly a doodle book but I am sure I will be seeing Butts on Things everywhere.
Shout out to DripDrop ORS Dehydration Relief. These are the best things I have ever tried. Healthier than store bought energy drinks, they dissolve quickly and completely, convenient packaging, and they taste delicious. Emily and I are huge fans!