Wide awake at 3 am. The dogs are hogging the bed. My husband is snoring, and my right foot is dangling off the side of the bed as I hug my pillow to keep me on the mattress. I realize my body is hovering on the edge like a coin on the coin drop machineContinue reading “A Thief Called Dementia”
Category Archives: Grief and Loss
Fallout After Loss
My Dad passed away when I was a junior in high school. While I was only sixteen, I had the maturity to understand a little about grief and processing emotions. I never thought this shouldn’t have happened, and I did not argue with the reality of the situation. I accepted that life is unpredictable, weContinue reading “Fallout After Loss”
Grief, Loss, and Lots of Thoughts
I opened the Wordle game and typed in G.R.I.E.F. as my starting word. I usually start with the first word that comes to mind each day. Today, that word was GRIEF. I was thinking about the concept of grief and the rules about grief. Sometimes society seems to put loss into categories with corresponding grief scales.Continue reading “Grief, Loss, and Lots of Thoughts”
Disability and the Church: Our Family’s Story
When I was pregnant with Justin, I met a neighbor who was pregnant too. It turns out our children were due less than a week apart. We became fast friends. One week she invited us to attend her church. Todd and I had never attended church together in our marriage. I would go alone atContinue reading “Disability and the Church: Our Family’s Story”
Grief Emerging From a Closet Purge
This weekend Todd is camping, and he even took Ben with him. I cannot believe how much quieter the house is without the young pup following me every minute of the day. Coco is content and thrilled to just be left alone. Enjoying the calm that surrounds her while she sleeps and eats. I amContinue reading “Grief Emerging From a Closet Purge”
The Urban Farm Era Coming to a Close
Last week as I processed the pearl-sized loss of my goldfish I got hit with another small loss. On the anniversary of my dad’s passing, my sweet Tinkerbell was taken from the coop by raccoons. Tink was a beautiful bantam Buff Brahma that we acquired in June 2016. A result of a very cruel seniorContinue reading “The Urban Farm Era Coming to a Close”
Pearl Sized Loss
It’s just a damn goldfish. Pull yourself together. I go to the cupboard and retrieve the net. Tears are streaming down my face, and I muffle my cries. Guacamole is lying at the bottom of the tank. I scoop his lifeless body from the bottom of the tank and take him to the compost bin. “GoContinue reading “Pearl Sized Loss”
Gratitude Can Cut Through the Darkness
Storms will always be a part of life. There isn’t any way to avoid them. We pray they will pass quickly, but we are at their mercy. How do we ride out the inevitable storms? What strategies can we use to weather them with less damage? How do we come through the season of badContinue reading “Gratitude Can Cut Through the Darkness”
Not the Sanctuary of My Dreams
Why isn’t the joy bubble refilling faster? I thought we were writing something whimsical and fun this week? What is wrong with you? Snap out of it. (The A side of my chatter) Give yourself a break. November is already a weird month for you. You often get the blues around this time of theContinue reading “Not the Sanctuary of My Dreams”
Short Lives-Impactful Dashes
When we have children, our lives are forever changed. For some parents the changes are minor. The family grows, but the flow, friends, and routines are only slightly altered. When Justin was born, we were in this category. He was so easy. I could take him anywhere, and he just adapted. My routines, friends, andContinue reading “Short Lives-Impactful Dashes”
Conversation for Change 