Disability and the Church: Our Family’s Story

When I was pregnant with Justin, I met a neighbor who was pregnant too. It turns out our children were due less than a week apart. We became fast friends. One week she invited us to attend her church. Todd and I had never attended church together in our marriage. I would go alone atContinue reading “Disability and the Church: Our Family’s Story”

Caregiving: A Group Project, Not a Solo Mission

During the pandemic lockdown, I shared the mental impact of isolation on our family. Emily was agitated, distraught, and angry. I was beginning to experience the taxation on my body, mentally and physically, as our family navigated the world with a limited supply of support and services. When schools reopened, and Emily’s after-school program resumed,Continue reading “Caregiving: A Group Project, Not a Solo Mission”

Grief Emerging From a Closet Purge

This weekend Todd is camping, and he even took Ben with him. I cannot believe how much quieter the house is without the young pup following me every minute of the day. Coco is content and thrilled to just be left alone. Enjoying the calm that surrounds her while she sleeps and eats. I amContinue reading “Grief Emerging From a Closet Purge”

Scorched Psyche, Slaughter, and Sleepless Nights

The pattern has repeated itself night after night for almost a week. I need to figure out how to disrupt it and clear the debris. I can only hope that my scorched psyche will heal once I empty the crazy in my mind. Writing has always been my cheapest form of therapy. For my sanityContinue reading “Scorched Psyche, Slaughter, and Sleepless Nights”

Dancing in Disconnect

This past weekend, Todd and I decided to take the family camping for the long weekend. Justin wanted to stay home and have friends over, and he agreed to care for our senior poodle, Coco. We chose our location and planned our meals. I prepared all the things needed to take Emily on a roadContinue reading “Dancing in Disconnect”

Experiencing a Heart Smile

What makes you smile? That was the question we pondered in our listening circle group today. It was an easy question for me. “The better question to ask me is what doesn’t make me smile? I smile all the time. I smile at puppies, kittens, babies, commercials, and my kids, and when I connect withContinue reading “Experiencing a Heart Smile”

Different Path and Different Journey

“Normality is a paved road: It’s comfortable to walk, but no flowers grow.”-Vincent Van Gogh  Cradled in her arms is her first grandchild. At two months of age, Wyatt craves the comfort of a warm embrace and the sway of arms that hold him while he sleeps. As I watch Patti gently rocking Wyatt toContinue reading “Different Path and Different Journey”

The Urban Farm Era Coming to a Close

Last week as I processed the pearl-sized loss of my goldfish I got hit with another small loss. On the anniversary of my dad’s passing, my sweet Tinkerbell was taken from the coop by raccoons. Tink was a beautiful bantam Buff Brahma that we acquired in June 2016. A result of a very cruel seniorContinue reading “The Urban Farm Era Coming to a Close”

New Year, Recurring Fear

There is something beautiful about starting a new year. Each year is a recurring clean slate. The past year is behind us, and a new year is ahead. I was extra excited that January 1st fell on a Sunday this year. I love to plan my week on Sunday mornings. I time block my week,Continue reading “New Year, Recurring Fear”

Whimsy to Woeful

It’s quickly approaching 1 am. I am sitting on the floor in the living room, surrounded by a sea of towels. A stack of clean. A stack of dirty and a stack of—I am not even sure at this point. Emily is leaning her head on my chest, and we are covered in a bigContinue reading “Whimsy to Woeful”