Grief cannot always be predicted and calculated. I have mentioned before that it comes in cycles and often comes to visit when you least expect it. May has been a month where I am experiencing a heaviness in my heart. I have been feeling sad, angry, and anxious. I have not slept well either. IContinue reading “Grief and Anniversaries”
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Discovery in Recovery
I was excited to finally have surgery on my right foot. My toe has been causing me pain for over a year. I was grateful to schedule at a time when Todd was able to take off work and help care for Emily. I was encouraged that the recovery was not as long as otherContinue reading “Discovery in Recovery”
Clean Teeth and Kindness
As I take Emily to the restroom to begin her evening routine, I engage in my mental routine to prepare. My inner chatter commences. You can do hard things. You were made for this. You are a caregiving badass. Tonight will go well. You have enough energy left to do this. You are doing thisContinue reading “Clean Teeth and Kindness”
Dogs, Beards, Emily, a Wedding, and God
Looking at all the incredible photographs from this past weekend fills me with gratitude and joy. My favorite nephew (please do not tell the others), Collin got married. The wedding was in Santa Barbara. The weekend included the rehearsal dinner on Friday followed by an incredible cocktail party on the rooftop of the Hotel Californian.Continue reading “Dogs, Beards, Emily, a Wedding, and God”
It’s Just a Tea Towel
I received snail mail this week that filled me with delight. I love to get things in the mail. I am not talking about the countless Amazon boxes, but handwritten notes or cards. Joy mail makes my heart sing. The package was from Zatuilla. She is a friend I have made through the Pause BreatheContinue reading “It’s Just a Tea Towel”
R&R Vegas Style
I used to run myself ragged trying to do everything by myself. Running on empty and in a chronic state of overwhelm. I didn’t know how to ask for help. I believed it was not only my job to care for my children exclusively but my duty. No one could do it like me. MyContinue reading “R&R Vegas Style”
Anger With a Side of Guilt
Todd woke up this morning and could not put weight on his left foot. He has worked a lot of extra hours this past week and was on his feet more than usual. He emerged from the bedroom with a boot on his foot. He proceeded to tell me that Emily had an accident inContinue reading “Anger With a Side of Guilt”
Curiosity to Connection
Have you ever been drawn to someone? There is something about their energy that is attracting you to them. I am taking a course that meets via Zoom on Saturday mornings. The first week I logged in, I was filled with nervous excitement. As I stared at the Brady Bunch squares, I was drawn toContinue reading “Curiosity to Connection”
Time Lies
It’s only an hour, I thought. How can an hour be so disruptive? I was on a Zoom call with Bobby Kountz this weekend and he was discussing Timelines and said Time “lies”. He was discussing how we often take time for granted. We postpone things until something happens or changes. We tend to kickContinue reading “Time Lies”
The Dog I Never Knew I Needed
Our dog, Lucky, was diagnosed with lymphoma about the same time I started my weekly blog post. Lucky was taking steroids and other medications to reduce the size of his lymph nodes and provide him comfort. Some days he was full of energy. There would be a pep in his step. The medications extended hisContinue reading “The Dog I Never Knew I Needed”
Conversation for Change 